Monday, August 31, 2009

Reflecting

On Friday, I finished up my first week of work. Work, that is, in the loosest sense of the word. I show up at a funky little neighborhood sandwich shop and help them out for a few hours at lunchtime. Keeps me from

1. Being alone in the house all day with nobody to boss around....uh-NURTURE. I meant nurture.

2. Gives me some work experience, since I haven't worked for anyone that hasn't passed through my loins since before Sierra was born. Work experience for what, I don't know. I'm still lost when it comes to that whole "what I want to be when I grow up" thing.

3.Keeps me in check when it comes to projects around the house. At least, that's what I was hoping. So far it hasn't worked. But at least I won't be shopping all day, right? Most women love buying clothes, shoes and bags....no thanks. I'll take paint/trim/fabric/random tables off Craigslist that I don't need anyday of the week thankyouverymuch.

With this new role comes a new identity. Or, more precisely, a lack of identity. Nobody knows anything about me. Nothing except that I have a habit of busting into song and dance without warning. And I'm sure that they are wishing that they didn't know that. But that's it. I'm not the mom with a bunch of kids, or the piano lady from church, or the neighbor that is constantly struggling with the weeds in the front yard....I'm just me. And guess what?

It's a little unnerving.

For the first time it feels like I've been stripped of everything that defines me. Everything in my life that tells the story of who I am. Or who I thought I was. I didn't realize on how much I LET all these things define me. But I'm learning that all though these pieces play a big part, they certainly don't make a whole.

Who knew?

P.S If you wanna stop in and say hi, Fridays are the best....live music day. A guy and his guitar that gives my "acoustic station" on Pandora a run for it's money.

7 comments:

  1. It is hard to imagine starting out with NO Identity.... Can't imagine...I love you just the way you are.... Just YOU!

    Love,

    MOM

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  2. Passed through your loins? ROFL!!

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  3. Glad you are enjoying it. We missed you at the movie yesterday.

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  4. Wow, I think that's great. I would go back to school if my kids were all gone during the day...but, as it is, we're looking at least three more years before that happens. I also think that it's awesome that your burst into song. I wanna see! Makes me wish I lived near you. >pout<

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  5. hmmm....I'm now starting to wonder who the heck I really am. I think I'm kind of afraid to find out.

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  6. At least the piano lady and the weed lady are nice people. Remember our piano lady? Nice and her weren't even on the same planet!

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  7. Is it a potbelly's? We moved from VA last year and I so miss potbelly's.

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